RIP

It is with sorrow that I am writing to all of you about the passing of my game development partner, He’Ke. It happened unexpectedly today and this post is a way for me to memorialize the loss of my much-loved pet.

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If you remember the story, in June 2012 I rescued a chipmunk abandoned by his mother, and raised him like a member of my family. You can read the full story [HERE]

He’Ke came as a blessing. It was too much of a coincidence to ignore. Actually, ‘providence’ is a much better keyword to describe our meeting. From 2011 onward, my life was very chaotic. If not for his constant joyful presence, I would have never survived those terrible, harsh years. He was always there for me, running and jumping around me to cheer me up, no matter what. He saved me from a sure depression. It’s as if something in the universe knew beforehand I’d need this guardian angel in order to allow keep me moving forward.

I had this intuition He’Ke’s special mission would end once I begin a new chapter in my life, then his role would be fulfilled and he would be called back to where he came from. And here I am, starting a new chapter. Things improved drastically lately―thanks to the good Samaritan who kept encouraging me for years. One week before June, I moved in a giant, loft-like condominium in a very quiet neighborhood. Holy cow, both He’Ke and I were in clover here. It was so obvious the way he explored every nook and cranny of his new place. He had some new favorite spots. It was really cute to see him.

Yesterday night, he went in bed much earlier than usual―nothing indicated sudden health issues―and a few hours ago I decided to wake him up myself only to find out he was lifeless under his nest of blankets. He seemed peaceful with his arms crossed. I hope it’s a sign he passed away in his sleep, without suffering. It’s indeed the last picture I took of He’Ke.

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I’ve been crying all evening. I’m still in grief. The apartment feels so empty now. I miss the noise of his jubilant footsteps. I miss when he kept climbing on me—even when I complained he was distracting me in my work. I miss when he slept on my shoulder while I was working on my projects. Damn. I’m all alone now. It’s still difficult to accept this as true. I expected we’d eat tons of litchis again this summer. I expected he’d still keep me company for another winter.

Death is sudden and unexpected for sure. It’s why it’s important to cherish each instant with the beings that are important to us. Or have empathy for others even when we don’t know them. There’s no proof there’s an afterlife, and this ‘existence’ is the only thing we can build upon.

I was very hesitant to bury He’Ke in the backyard in order to keep him close to me. Although it’s a dream place here, there’s not enough strong memories, plus there’s no guarantee I’ll stay here for years to come. Instead, I decided to bury him at the same exact spot where I found him. The meaning is more powerful. Two trees serve as tombstones, which meant his body will still play a role in the ecosystem, maybe allow a bed of flowers to bloom.

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All thing considered, He’Ke had a really good run. He lived five years when he was supposed to die early during his babyhood. His name stands for Helen Keller because he was partially blind and almost completely deaf, but strong-willed. I did my absolute best to offer him the best quality of life and treated him with equal rights. If humans do have a soul, then I can confirm that animals have a soul too. And if ‘soul’ simply means being ‘important’, than that’s how I see all good-hearten living beings. To be honest, I prefer the presence of animals over most humans. There’s something pure about certain species, and chipmunks are truly fascinating. I shared every bit of space I had with him without keeping him in a cage, it helped to create a solid bond between us. And I’m sure He’Ke has always been grateful for this.

Rest in Peace, dear friend. Won’t be easy to live in complete solitude again.

June 2012 – June 2017

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10 thoughts on “RIP

  1. Thank you everyone for your kind comments via my Facebook posts: [here] and [here].

    In some way He’Ke has been part of this website for a long time. Some of you had sent donations when I found him in a near death state in 2012, which allowed me to keep him in safety. I want to express my gratitude on behalf of He’Ke.

  2. Oh, I am so sorry for your loss. I loved to check in with you every once in a while. I was a supporter and follower since your very clever post on Indiegogo and I loved your stories and updates. When the company I worked for closed in April of 2015 I lost your contact info, however I thought about He’Ke very often and wondered how you were both doing. I always wished for much happiness and good things to come your way. I am very happy to hear He’Ke was still with you to see you begin this new chapter of your life. I’m sure he loved life with you and he was so lucky the day you rescued him. I too like animals more than people. Our pets are our family, our children, and we wish they would stay with us forever. You gave He’Ke an amazing life and the loss will be felt for a very long time but I am sure you will not close your heart to another being in need. Thank you for sharing He’ke with us. Very best wishes for your continued success and happy adventures. Jean from Massachusetts.

  3. My dear friend you could not have written a heartfelt tribute to honour He’Ke. It is fate that you saved him and he you. You share one of the most precious bonds two souls could have formed. Even though his body is now lifeless I can feel that he is still here with you and I have a knowing that he will make himself known to you in small and undeniably large ways as you go about the business of living. He had such a great name sake as well, I love that you chose to name him after her! And as to his burial, it is the absolute loveliest for his body to give back to the place from which he entered this world. Watch for his “hellos” in the coming days and years. He is pure love in its highest vibration, the energy of everything and always. Cheers to you both and much love as you step into the next evolution of your life!

  4. That is very sad news! :( I remember all your posts from when you first found him and your efforts to bring him back to health. I’m glad you and He’Ke were able to bring so much to each others lives. I hope the happy memories of your years with him will continue to enrich your life for many years to come.

  5. :( I’m so, so sorry. It’s horrible when a beloved pet dies – I’ve lost two cats and I know what it’s like. (hug)

  6. I’ve read “The Story Of My Life” and I can see the portion where you played the role of Anne Sullivan. :)
    For sure the next few weeks are going to be dull af because of this loss…

    “If not for his constant joyful presence, I would have never survived those terrible, harsh years. He was always there for me, running and jumping around me to cheer me up, no matter what. He saved me from a sure depression. It’s as if something in the universe knew beforehand I’d need this guardian angel in order to allow keep me moving forward.”
    Hope you act wisely and are able to move forward (instead of going into a depression) and let his purpose be fulfilled, it’s time to give your 200% to whatever he came to help you with. Your fans are still around and will be there whatever happens.

    My heartfelt sympathy for your loss, and after all no one’s gonna stay here forever. Cheer up and get back to work, time to devote your current project (for which he did play a significant role) to your companion. :)

  7. Hey there Elder. It’s been a while and check in on you; see how you’re doing. I hope you’re well.

  8. Hey man, hang in there. It’s sad when a loved one (be it a person or a pet) passes away. It always helps me to remember all the fun things we did.

  9. Hey Elder,

    It’s Erdem. I know the value of a true animal friend. I lived with one bird for almost a decade. I know the pain and the loss of it. I want you to know that He’Ke might have played a part in your life, but please know that you were his whole life. And you made him very happy, every single day, giving a home and a life and the kind of a love which is very rare among its species. He was lucky have been rescued by you and you were lucky to have received his friendship. You both were special to each other. So just remember that one’s soul remain forever in their creations. The love you two have created in each other will always remain in your souls. No matter you two go, whoever you become, wherever you guys are born, your loves became a part of your souls know and your souls became a part of that love.

    Many Blessings and my condolences to both of you,
    I will pray for happiness and safety for you both.
    E <3 _/\_

  10. I deeply appreciate your condolence messages, everyone!

    My grief proved to be more persistent than anticipated. It’s been two months since the incident and today I am adamant that He’Ke didn’t die of natural causes. The cause is second-hand smoke, courtesy of two chain smokers living below me, who still believe in our days and age that their rights matter more than non-smokers’. I became seriously sick myself and I had to exile myself inside my garage, which isn’t a better breathing environment, with the stench of gasoline and pressed cedar boards. I never had the chance to mourn my pet in comfort and serenity. I noticed that most people around me don’t understand that one can be afflicted by the loss of a pet as much as human loss. I discovered the work of Swedenborg, and whether his writings are true or not, it offered comfort on the subject of afterlife.

    My landlords had more or less recognized the second-hand smoke issue and decided to cancel my current lease. They offered me to live in their brand-new building instead, with a $1200 CAD price reduction. The bright side of my tragedy is that they’re going to make all their future buildings non-smoker; so who knows, it might save future lives.

    Although I was so motivated, my game development was ruined this summer, so let’s pray September onward will be without incident. My new flat should be ready soon. It’s almost exactly the same replica of my current apartment. I can’t wait to move there and breath fresh air and work efficiently in my projects.

    Still, I will miss He’Ke as a team mate. It wasn’t an ordinary pet.

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